Abandoned Love

My heart is telling me, I love you still I can see the turning of the key I've been deceived by the clown inside of me I thought that he was righteous but he's vain Something's telling me, I wear the ball and chain My patron saint is a-fighting with a ghost He's always off somewhere when I need him most The Spanish moon is rising on the hill But something's telling me, I love you still I come back to the town from the flaming ruins But when I see you in the street I begin to swoon I love to see you dress before the mirror Won't you let me in your room one time, before I finally disappear Everybody's wearing a disguise To hide what they've got left behind their eyes But me I can't cover what I am Wherever their children go, I'll follow them I'm marching the parade of liberty But as long as I love you I'm not free How long must I suffer such abuse Won't you let me see you smile, before I turn you loose I've given up the game I've got to leave The pot of gold is only make believe The treasure can't be found by men who search Who's gods are dead and whose queens are in the church We sat in an empty theater and we kissed I asked you please to cross me off your list My head tells me it's time to make a change But my heart is telling me, I love you but you're strange (Refrain instrumental) So one more time at midnight near the wall Take off your heavy makeup and your shawl Won't you descend from the throne from whence you sit And let me feel your love one more time, before I finally abandon it