Precious Illusions

you’ll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did.. I’ll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in you’ll complete me right? then my life can finally begin I’ll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am? but this won’t work now the way it once did and I won’t keep it up even though I would love to once I know who I’m not then  I’ll know who I am but I know I won’t keep on playing the victim these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends this ring will me yet as will you knight in shining armor this pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water but this won’t work as well as the way it once did cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss and though I know who I’m not I still don’t know who I am but I know I won’t keep on playing the victim these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend I’ve spent so long firmly looking outside me I’ve spent so much time living in survival mode but this won’t work as well as the way it once did cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss and though I know who I’m not I still don’t know who I am but I know I won’t keep on playing the victim these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend